Consistency is a struggle. One minute your up strong in faith, and the next you feel completely defeated. The struggle of trying to do right and wanting to do wrong. I imagine Jacob and his inner fight trying to keep his balance. The moments when you’ve done right in spite of your surroundings reminding yourself your trying to honor God. The feelings you push down that oftentimes lead to resentment, but you keep it moving anyways. The conversations with God trying to make sense of your life and wondering when it will come to pass. Wondering if anything you do even matters or makes a difference. I find the only way to keep my head on straight to give myself some redirection to get into the word and then take inventory of all the fires I’ve been carried through. I think of the fight between the two worlds good and evil both fighting for my mind. The mind is the battle ground. So I remind myself of all the souls who have been here before me, they too had a struggle. Many times we can read about the apostles and prophets and see only the happy ending not recognizing they too were in a fight, I would go so far to say their struggles were far greater than ours because they didn’t have a bible to read. However, we can gain comfort in the way they continued in spite of their fears, disappointments, and lack of understanding in it’s fullness. So sometimes you too have to remind yourself they too were humans with similar emotions and experiences. We are told in 1 Peter 1:7 “That the trial of your faith (being more precious than gold that perisheth, though it be tested with fire) might be found unto praise and honor and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ.” Your trial/circumstances are your tests (fire) how you choose to handle them is your own choice. I can assure your looking back that the only way to keep moving is in faith. Faith that all things work together for your good. It’s to build your strength, patients, tenacity, and to put old attitudes away. Remember who you belong to (its not this world). Look up and believe your heavenly father has your back like no one else ever will. Believe that even when the fire gets hot and the enemy keeps turning up the heat look up and remember Job 13:15 ” Though he slay me, yet will I trust in him: but I will maintain mine own ways before him.” Evil has nothing on you. Though the world may feel like it is at a boiling point remember who is in control not man but God. Psalm 46:1 ” God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble.” Guard your heart, your mind and tongue for you are loved and cared for even when it feels like it’s all falling apart, God is making a new you. Have a blessed day…….. refuse to sink.